Hi people in the blog-o-sphere! Here is the 1st webisode from SYC Ensemble Singers. SYC is 45 and we've celebrating it with friends from around the world. To close the year, we're having a concert at Esplanade Concert Hall on the 13th December 2009. Details are below!!
SYC & Friends featuring SYC Ensemble Singers conducted by Vytautas Miskinis with Tamagoh, Tony Makarome, Joel Nah and Wong Yun Qi 13.12.09, Sunday 7.30pm Esplanade Concert Hall
Tickets at: $20, $25, $30, $35 (inc. of SISTIC fee)
If anyone's interested, please contact me for tickets!
Enjoy the video!
Update soon.
:> KD
11:38 PM
Saturday, October 17, 2009,
Hello, people in the blog-o-sphere. It seems like I've neglected you for a while. Well, the unexpected short blogging hiatus is over. It's time I get back to blogging, partly because I fel relaxed enough to sit down and type out whatever that comes to my mind.
During this week, a great load has been taken off my shoulders and I am no longer as stressed as I was for a few weeks now. The stress and anxiety overwhelmed my mind and so blogging became something I put aside so to concentrate fully on the challenges ahead of me at that time. I don't know whether I was stressing out unnecessarily or felt compelled to stress out, considering the situation I was in. Driven by my stressed out brain, I was working real hard for these few weeks and I can finally take a breather after this week has passed.
Now that my mind is cleared of anxiety and stress, I can see a little clearer and feel a little more relaxed. I was finally able to catch up on some sleep and It felt wonderful. My head no longer feels so heavy anymore. I truly feel lighter, in every sense of the word I guess.
On to other things, there'll be lots of projects coming up for SYCES. One of them is our year-end concert, which will celebrate the 45th anniversary for SYCES. It's promotion time!!!
SYC & Friends featuringSYC Ensemble Singers conducted by Vytautas Miskinis withTamagoh, Tony Makarome, Joel Nah & Wong Yun Qi 13.12.09, Sunday 7.30pm Esplanade Concert Hall Tickets at: $20, $25, $30, $35 (inc. SISTIC fee)
If anyone is interested in coming, please contact me for tickets!!
Update soon.
KD :>
10:19 PM
Wednesday, August 26, 2009,
I don't really know how it happened but some time last week, I realised my weeks are getting very packed. I had important things to do everyday, back to back. It just seemed like all my free time is gone for the last week or so. It was bizzarre just zipping around having to squeeze everything together in a short amount of time. I was probably rushing about the last week and was busy and/or tired most of the time. Funny how things were so packed.
Recently, there has been this underlying feeling of frustration within me. In addition, I got really tired of the drama I have been going through these days. I don't know why I have such strong feelings when put in such situations. I really should just chill out and not think too much. However, I feel so compelled to get angry and frustrated. Maybe because I feel like there's a lot of indifference when there shouldn't be any. Maybe because I'm disappointed. Or maybe because there might be a tinge of hatred. Whatever the case is, it is taking its toll on me and my energy.
How can I push on when there is so little within me already? I feel like I've lost loads of motivation these past weeks. Still, I have to go on.
Anyway, I had a couple of performances with SYC Ensemble Singers recently. One is at a National Citizenship Ceremony held at the Supreme Court. We sang some local pieces and saw new citizens being presented their ICs and papers. There was a delicious reception afterwards. Maybe we were just too hungry but everything tasted so good.
Another performance would be the 'Leong Yoon Pin: A Choral Odyssey' concert at Esplanade Concert Hall yesterday night. There were so many choirs participating in this particular concert and it must have been logistics heel for the organisers. Anyway, it was incredibly enjoyable as I got to hear many other choirs and also perform really fantastic pieces like 'Nightmare'.
Update soon.
:> KD
5:01 PM
Sunday, August 02, 2009,
It's getting harder to go through each day recently. After a going through a week filled with great highs and absolute lows, I got really tired and exhausted. It took me another week to get my act together and forge ahead. Now I must move ahead with whatever motivation I have left and just hope that I can pull through while still doing okay in terms of work.
I think I often put many things on my mind. Maybe too much things in my mind. I don't really like to completely pour out everything that comes to mind. There must always be a filtering of sorts. You don't know whether you have offended people and created more enemies than you bargained for. But maybe that will also give you much trouble.
Eventually, people who don't know you quite you and yet you have to come into contact on a regular basis will start whispering in other people's ears on various things that will tarnish others' impression of you. Soon, you find yourself a target for some reason you yourself don't realise, a subject of mockery or a just another topic those people can gossip about even when they say they don't gossip.
Truthfully, I don't have the faintest idea whether that kind of situaton is true but all I can say is that the things that go through my mind can be a little negative.
On a lighter note, I went to attend Kailin's 21st birthday and it was fantastic being around 34/06 again after quite some time. It felt so familiar to be around them once again and chat the night away while simultaneously celebrating Kailin's birthday. I felt very good in their company after a painful week quite frankly. Just kept laughing quite a bit and just had great fun.
I also went K Box with Song Ern, Shen Een and Siewwoon. I haven't been in K Box in such a long time and when the opportunity came out, I just jumped at it. Really had a fun night singing the night away and just releasing all the stress I feel recently. Had a really fun and satisfying night.
Update soon.
KD :>
10:35 PM
Saturday, July 04, 2009,
I really should get to blogging. Shouldn't neglect this blog I created a few years back.
Just sang with Tha Australian Voices this week and I really must say I had a blast performing with them. To have the opportunity to sing with foreign choirs is one of the things I love about being in SYC. They were so different from us in a lot of ways and yet we were able to sing together well and mix well with each other. Chatting them up was really fun. It was so interesting seeing how they perform and how they see music. It's quite an experience. Definitely one I'll remember for a long long time.
I'm so close to being free. Most people say that it'll be very fast. When I keep thinking about it, it can be painfully slow. These are the times when I feel desperate for it to be over. I really want it to be over and done with. I have to keep reminding myself that I need to still do it I have to pull through. Only then will I be truly free.
This week has been hard to go through. I was having stomach cramps and aches for the first few days of the week and then when that was over, the fever and flu kicked in. I feel so completely horrible right now. It's really hard to get by each day. Hopefully I'l be better soon. It's not a good time now to be so sick.
Update soon. KD :>
9:43 PM
Sunday, May 31, 2009,
This really has been a busy yet satisfying month. Loads of activities and things done. It really made time pass really fast, which was maybe one of the aims of keeping myself so busy.
First of all, I 'd like to say thanks to all who have, one way or another, wished me happy birthday during my birthday. It's heartwarming to see so many birthday messages on my phone and Facebook. It fills my heart with joy that so many people gave some time to write those messages. Thanks guys!!! Really appreciate it. :)
TJChoir concert was this month and it was really hectic to say the least. I have two seperate performances with two seperate choirs. SYC performed as guest performers and TJChoir Alumni, which I had a hand in organising, also performed. It was really bizzare having two seperate groups to sing with and two seperate set of songs to do. It really was a first, but after the concert I really felt at least a little sense of achievement, partly because TJChoir Alumni only had a handful of practices to rehearse the pieces but we still managed to pull it off, even with such a small number of singers. THANKS to them for giving their time to sing in a TJChoir concert!
It was such a joy seeing each other again and also seeing so many batches of TJChoir people attending the concert. So it was like a gathering of sorts. It was a little hard leaving after the performance cause all of us were so caught up with chatting with each other and catching up. Brings back loads of great memories form TJ.
Will talk about other things that happened later on cause it's getting late.
Update soon.
KD :>
11:23 PM
Thursday, April 30, 2009,
The itch to blog has finally come back to me and it seems like only when I go through some drama, whether it's in my life or work. But I would really like to rant now since I feel I've bottled up a month's worth of emotions.
It seems like no matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to catch up. I try incredibly hard and had come from almost nothing to something to be proud about. I finally gain some confidence in myself when there will always be a reminder to me, in various forms, that I'm just not good enough, that I'll always be a step behind other people. It really kills my spirit.
I try my absolute best and try to fulfil other people's expectations of me. However, other people come along and completely knock down any notion within me that I was doing ok. It's all because there'll be many to judge me and different people will expect me to live by their standards and do things their way. If I don't comply, I always seem to be in the line of fire, which I really abhore.
To say that I feel stressed is putting it lightly. I feel completely helpless recently and nothing seems to be able to calm me down. I really have to grit my teeth and put up with it no matter what, cause guess what...I have no other choice and/or option left.
I really don't want to vent my frustrations on others, hence the blog entry (cause I don't really know who is reading this). It's pretty unfair for others to have the burden of listening to you rant. But I have to purge this frustration within me somehow. Forgive me if I have affected anyone while they're reading this.
I really seem to be stretched paper thin, thinking that I can take it. Well, I still believe I can take it and make it work. Hopefully, I'll come out of it wiser.
